My Crystal Ball Is Cracked!

The famous cliche' of "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" applies here today. I would like to crawl under a rock for a long, long, long time. I make so many decisions in a day that I come home and cannot even pick a channel to lose focus on. Now I am faced with some life altering decisions and I cannot pick a one. Each one takes my family and I down a different road and I just cannot move forward. I feel like my feet are stuck in cement blocks and someone is getting ready to toss me over a bridge. The water is soon going to rise up to my head and it will be over. Oh yeah, this is real life and not an episode of SOPRANO'S, I almost forgot. Can it be an episode of GREY'S ANATOMY then maybe? Okay, sorry...

As much as I claim to crave change, I fear it. It seems to consume me and take over. I don't do well with it. There should be a support group called Changers Anonymous or something. I wouldn't be the leader, but I would probably hold the record for attendance.

I joked today that I needed a crystal ball and my dear pal said that it didn't matter if I did have one because it would probably be cracked! How's that for support from a good pal huh? You gotta love my wacky circle of friends. They love me, they hate me and they love to hate me; but they religiously tune into my life each week to see where it leads next. I am the only virtual soap opera they've got. I am better than Reality TV I am Interactive VL (Virtual Life!) And it doesn't get any better than this baby!

I am thankful for my amazing friends who walk this crazy journey called life with me though. I know the past few weeks, okay months, have been tiring and even boring and brutal at times, but know that you mean the world to me.